A lot of times people and animals are just trying to show me some love... and I get mad at them. Sorry, Montecore.

Playing it cool is kind of playing it insignificant.

I want this summer to be over. I have no energy for anything. I am so fucking tired of seeing people in pain.

I kind of give up.

Somberly content

As it stands, life is very difficult for everyone I care about. I guess that's the way it goes sometimes.

Prove me wrong

About Rottweilers.

10,000 animals. Six fucking months!

I hate:

Rottweilers.

It's like

Anna and Don Draper

Midday Nap

I just had the saddest dream of my life. There was a camping trip and I saw a whale. A very touching course of events took place. I want it to happen more than anything. But, I know that it won't. I woke up on the couch, faced with reality, in my 100 degree apartment. No water. No whale. Fuck. I just want it to happen.

I've heard that dreaming is a brain's way of crapping out old thoughts that you don't need anymore. I hope that is what just happened, but I'm pretty sure that these ponderings will persist.

In other news

I just weighed myself. 98 fucking pounds. Someone needs to tube feed me lard and potatoes.

I really needed a day of triumph. Today I got it.

Yes:
- Exclusively working in surgery.
- Appriciation shown through water ice.
- When an army of volunteers come to our rescue.
- When the army brings leftovers from their BBQs.
- "You keep this up and they're gonna call you the best tech in the universe."
- Rescues saving an ass ton of animals - including special needs beasts!
- Sociallizing a feral that was almost euthanized!!! (This one is my favorite)
- Containing parvo.

Today

What the fuck is wrong with my body? I feel like I am dying and I can hardly walk. My stomach and back might explode. Tomorrow will be the roughest day of the week. I hope I am feeling at least slightly better. I want to be playing wiffleball with my boyfriend right now, but it's just me and you, internet.

It was a tough day at ACCT. Actually, this whole week has been tough. I have been pretty stressed and feeling like shit for most of it. I want more time to spend with friends. I want to be pleasant during that time. I would also like to erase some things from my brain. Unlikely. That's how it goes, I guess.

I wonder if there will ever be a point in my life when I get to celebrate holidays again. Also unlikely.